Fake Friend

If I have known that you were like this, I shouldn’t have started calling you a friend.

You were nothing but a total stranger, someone who just dreamt of ever getting a speck of my attention. And I gave you just that, that little attention that grew into a false, deceiving, selfish kind of friendship that I regret ever establishing.

I write in gloom this very moment because this is the first time that friendship has failed me and left me bitter and severely aching. It pains my heart to realize that the seeds of kindness that I  sow, grew into a monster which If I permit so, could eat me alive this very instant.

‘Cause you were loud. And you wove self-centered stories for your own wicked desires, bent on making you look stronger, cooler and more likable, while dragging my name down to the bottom (which I firmly deem I do not deserve).

Nothing can ever make me extremely satisfied than to see you out of the game forever— along with your lies, pretenses, press releases and all the shit that you have introduced into it.

Destiny

I’d like to think that I am one of those who believe that destiny will help love find its way into my busy life.

‘Nuff said.

AFK

Dear Vincent,

If you’re gonna ask me something about Ran Online, then better ask another GM in the forums or better yet, file an inquiry ticket. If you need one more player so you play 5 on 5 on GG this time of the day, then I’d tell you I am still in the office and I am sorry for I cannot provide you the imba support that I know you really need. If there’s a funny video or a new porn site that you wanna share with me, then just leave the link or the message and I’d tell you my thoughts when I am no longer busy.

So what was it that you wanna say to me?

Saying Sorry

For the past seventeen months, my work has exposed me to a number of ugly truths about gamer behavior. One of the most obvious of them is the fact that when your players get frustrated, they lose their tempers instantly and turn to you with eyebrows crossed and talk shit.

The screenshot was taken after an in-game event I implemented wherein I assisted the players in finishing an instance dungeon that they couldn’t finish alone. A maximum of 21 Players (including the GM), may enter the enter the dungeon at a time.

Picky

These are examples of the foods that I dont eat:

To hell with them!

Deux

Had a blast last Saturday during Deux Family’s Anniversary party at Uno Pizzeria with Ching, Bea, Charms, Rhon and the Deux guild members.

Guild Deux is a family of gamers (Capellan fighters) gathered in the small but happy server known as Neptune . The Guild leader goes by the name of Russel (ign: SailorMars), who manages to find time to play Cabal amidst a hectic schedule as an entertainer (read: singer) in famous bars ’round Manila (like The Library). He chooses to act like a Mommy to all the guild members so that clearly shows exactly what the guild is all about, a family outside home— a second family (‘Deux’ means two in French, which they roughly adopted to mean ‘second’, thus, the guild name).

Feisty

So I was preparing for Graveyard Suryun when all of a sudden, from beneath the icy land-crystals of Another World she appears from nowhere…

GM-Mumu

Ah, GM Feisty. Truly fierce and feisty,  my first ever GM-supervisor way back when I was in Game Operations was then a constant source of some form of indescribable fear. She’s into every detail—every minute of your time, in your shift, is valuable and shouldn’t be wasted on browsing too many non-work related sites. Nya! -_-’

While I could never really share so much about her, but this I could tell you, that I have learned a couple of things from her:  that daily reports should be submitted daily; that going late at work more than three times a week isn’t a good habit;  that in Suryun you should consider summoning a number of traps (the ones which appear as ‘?’ which stun players for a short while) so you could grin devilishly as the Two-Head Fire dogs eat the players alive ; and that you shouldn’t play Cabal when your supervisor tells you that you should master O2Jam. HAHAHA!

The Dream Team

There’s something unique in everyone of us that makes the team special in a couple of ways. JP, Gelo and me, are still on the e-Games CGM Team, but we’re really starting to disperse ourselves into the places where we wanna be. Donna, DJ and Kat have already started leading different lives on the other side of the fence— where the grass is greener and where it is easier to farm for real-life gold.

Like in any online RPG game, we met through random chances (or tell me GM, was it fated?). Each has his/her own unique set of abilities, strengths, weaknesses, dislikes, demeanor and ways of coping with everyday stress.

Illidan

So the openly-obsessed World of Warcraft fanatic who goes by the name of GM Faith came today in the office with a freshly-bought Illidan action figure which was an instant head-turner. With the majestic purple wings, elongated demon horns and the legendary Warglaives of Terrorblade in his hands, Illidan Stormrage hails from depths of the hellish Outland.

“I’m blind, not deaf.”

Too awesome for something that you can buy for only 1.1k!

Argh, seeing the toy figure made me remember: it’s been more than a week since my last Dota match! -_-’

Ranguinus's End

I shot an arrow into the air,

It fell to earth I knew not where,

For so gently it flew—

The sight, could not follow it in his flight.

- The Arrow and the Song, by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

It is with bittersweet feelings that I leave today with beautiful memories of what seemed to have been a short but wonderfully-lived life. From where it began — from the shadow of unfathomable silence, it ended with a distinct noise, characteristically narrating a great sense of fulfillment that links merrily to the bottom of my heart.

The decision about ending it all was like one of the hardest decisions I ever made as a gamer. Nothing could be harder than leaving a family behind, from where you found love and care and attention. There’s so much that I owe to Guild Amitie that I could probably write down in words. Or possibly show to them. Or ever make them feel.

A couple of close friends, and a couple of sweet encounters with people made my life in Saturn rich with meaning and excitement.

Back then I would go to war. Where they say every hit matters and every single ally in the battlefield could make the biggest difference.