People in the office have discovered a mystical book out of nowhere. Entitled “The Secret Language of Birthdays” and explains through an astrological point of view, the qualities of people born on a specific day of the year.
While no one was looking, I flipped through the pages to find the 5th of December, that fateful day also known as my birthday.
The first statement of the entry reads: People born on the fifth of December are extremely confident of their abilities to get things done. The whole entry for the day emphasizes the most obvious strenghts and weaknesses of the those who were born on my birthday. Confident and daring as the positive qualities; overconfident and unrealistic as the key negative qualities.
However interpreted, the key word here, the most defining quality, is confidence. That feeling of trust, assurance or certainty about one’s own abilities and actions. Things will never go wrong because what I have and what I can do will never fail me.
Impeccably ironic for what I am going through right now.
People who have known me well and for many years would always speak of that natural overconfidence that exudes from my small body wherever I go and whatever I do. Most of the time, my arrogance was justified. And people had to live with it as if it were really part of my genetic make-up, that without being over-haugthy I will no longerbe myself.
I have always believed in my abilities. That all I needed was a great break or a smiling opportunity to come my way so I could unleash my talents in life and make it big in the real world. Not until a gallant truth slapped me hard in the face, for all I knew.
I am disheartened right now to find out how people seem to question my abilities and capacity for growth and development. Like a super tank knight stripped off of all of his silver armors, I am most vulnerable at this time.
In the real world, it is not always about abilities. Sometimes it’s about the attitude. Life is not always a test of what you can do, but also of the manner of how you will deal with it.
Maybe that is something I need to ponder on and learn to improve today.
